I feel like I've said this before.
By before, I mean the 6th of October - the last time this happened. A breakdown of the machine that helps keep this blog, this daily dream alive.
There's this battle, this struggle, between wanting to write everyday, and having to write everyday. Between quality and quantity. A lack of energy is surprisingly never the problem - a lack of inspiration is surprisingly always the problem.
I can see something starting to build. There is a certain repetitive nature that creeps in. There's always a default "back-up" option. Ex-Rayo players, or players who are born in Vallekas, or the underdog story of a Segunda B player struggling to rise to the top. And, more recently, Spanish players moving abroad.
There is a machinery that is neither fully invisible nor sustainable. And perhaps more than the stories themselves, this blog is about building that machine. One that can be both redundant to sustain inspiration, yet rigid enough to keep things moving. One that can be both invisible yet sustainable.
I don't know what the answer is, or what that machine looks like. But I do know that this is day number 292 since this blog was founded.
And I'm not even close.
By before, I mean the 6th of October - the last time this happened. A breakdown of the machine that helps keep this blog, this daily dream alive.
There's this battle, this struggle, between wanting to write everyday, and having to write everyday. Between quality and quantity. A lack of energy is surprisingly never the problem - a lack of inspiration is surprisingly always the problem.
I can see something starting to build. There is a certain repetitive nature that creeps in. There's always a default "back-up" option. Ex-Rayo players, or players who are born in Vallekas, or the underdog story of a Segunda B player struggling to rise to the top. And, more recently, Spanish players moving abroad.
There is a machinery that is neither fully invisible nor sustainable. And perhaps more than the stories themselves, this blog is about building that machine. One that can be both redundant to sustain inspiration, yet rigid enough to keep things moving. One that can be both invisible yet sustainable.
I don't know what the answer is, or what that machine looks like. But I do know that this is day number 292 since this blog was founded.
And I'm not even close.
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